So I'm in a mood to write. I've noticed since I became pregnant that I have had some real emotional issues, not just your normal pregnancy mood swings. I've dealth with depression before in my life. Mainly back in 2004/2005 for a length of time due to a relationship and other issues at home. Ive never talked to a doctor about it. I guess mainly because I was assamed, or thought maybe I could over come it myself. When I was pregnant I was very sad and angry, I cried a lot, didnt want much to do with anyone really. I was very snappy at people and felt like I was going to explode. I thought maybe it was just because my husband and I were appart and felt alone. He was away at school for his mos and I was back home with my family. I started only working part time cuz of some issues early on in my pregnancy. and it seemed like all i wanted to do was nothing but sleep. When we moved out to Arizona, when I was 8 months pregnant it seemed like ALL I did every day/night was cry. I felt unwanted and unattractive, which i know is normal in pregnancy to feel unattractive but I felt lil connection between my husband and I. After my son was born I felt more like myself again only to slowly go back to feeling down all the time. I get upset over things that normally wouldnt bother me. I hate that I dont have any family around us. and we hardly have any friends other than ones on the internet. Ive tried to make friends but my husband doesnt seem to care to. My problem cause more problems between my husband and I were I dont want to be intimate ever. I want to connect on another level be4 we are on that level. I feel like Ive change SOO much since being a mother. And on the most part I think its better. I feel that Im not as fun as I once was. I think we need other interaction with people and bc we dont it causes stress on our relationship. Im just looking to see if I can get help for my problems and maybe that would take away stress from my marriage. My marriage is strong and Its nothing to put at stake I just want to better it. Im planning to see this doctor this week if I can get in and FINALLY talk to someone about my depression. Hope to get some help!